Friday, May 25, 2012
It's really a sad day.Things still happened.Our comrade,our leader,our guilding light,our boss..he had been terminated.It's seriously the co. loss.Throughout everything we had gone through tgt,i truly understand that the warehouse hav this kind of poor result it's not becos of him,it's becos of the whole faclity and the way they execute thing.Lik so wtf,juz take this as an examples,juz fired my boss without any advance notices,so who is going to be our next boss and who are we going to report to?Nobody noe,no ideas at all.Ridiculous rite?I am prepared to leave tis co. anytime,i noe i might be impulsive,but as long as i really cannot take it,i really dun wanna force myself into tis shit anymore,i am so worried hw tis coming monday going to be,i am so so so afraid,hw?Tell me hw?Who is going to take care of us?Lead the team,help the team,motivate the team,in the understanding ways.Who can we find when we need help?Who can we find when someone bullied us?Who can be our shelter,be our mountain in future?Rmb last time,the old boss treat us so well tat when you came,we seriously dislik u,we dislik u wan us to work OT,we dislik u wan us to work till so late,we dislik u wan us to do tis do tat.Bt,no more,no more ben & jerry,the ice-cream that builds our relationship closer,no more yami yogurt,no more fries,no more go out for lunch,no more enter boss room in and out lik no laws,no more talking to boss lik talking to a friend,no more listening ear,no more temperamental,no more freedom in the co.,we lost everything.We lost the battle.We tried,but we failed.We had been fighting tgt since the first day u enter tis co.,rmb we always say things will get better,let's wait,let's hold on.But,things didn't get better,things didn't work out the way we wan it to be.We lose to the politic,we lose to those unreasonable barbarian.Da ye lang,wolf...we lose :(.I am awaiting,awaiting our next plan to arrive soon.Pls make tat day happened,we are all waiting for ur gd news.I am looking forward if tat day really came.




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8:00 PM


Monday, May 14, 2012
我也好可望有人这样爱我，我也会可望这样的被爱啊。可是，我就是没希望。总是被伤害，一再的被伤害。却要自己面对自己承受。所以，我真的会害怕了。




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9:09 PM


Tuesday, April 24, 2012
My feeling towards you finally become faded,each day by each day.And nw,you are juz my colleague,someone who was once close wif me.That's it.Today,i heard the news abt you,you actually went back to lead tat stupid life cos of her,do you noe i feel hw stupid you are?Do you noe hw disappointed i am wif you after hearing tat news?Hw can you treat the one who cares for you so cruel?Hw old are you already and why still dunno hw to tink?I have no rights to reprimand you.I am juz nobody to you.After noeing you had a breakup wif her again,all i tink is you better dun come back to me,cos even if you do,i won't giv a damn abt you.So i have no rights to blame you rather gg back to tat life and didn't come back to me.Anw,i am nw busy noticing him,and nt you anymore.I juz pity you,pity the person who cares,who lov you.Cos you disappointed them,you stabbed them damn hard.You are no longer tat proud guy who had once chatted wif me,concern me,lecture me and console me.She turned you back to devil,back to the selfish guy,since the day you chose to go back to her.If,if that nite,i am nt at my friends hse,i am at home,will you nt hang up the phone and continue to chat wif me,and tell me wat you actually wanna tell me?Isit that nite changed everything?Or that call actually meant to be nth?It wun make any changes to anything happened today even if we have chatted?I dunno,it's over,anw..it's already over.Take care.And,stop before it's late.




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
7:39 PM


Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Seriously,I hav no idea wat is the feeling towards you nw.Feel alittle disgusted by you at times.Are you back to her or you are actually wif someone else?Why can u act so normally?Wat are the past few mths all abt?Tat nite tat call,wat isit abt?No explanation,no gdbye,it started without a starting point,so it end without ending point too?U are juz borrowed to me for a few mths by her and she take u back?Bt if she nv take u back,are we possible to be tgt?I dunno.Hai.I really dunno wat's wrong wif my sis,i really hate tat she knew abt the ten yrs,it's a scar ever since 4 yrs ago,instead of healing it for me,instead of talking to me nicely,instead of cheering me,she is adding salt onto this scar,keep bringing it up and all i heard is sarcasm.She juz dunno hw it hurts.I dun feel proud waiting for ten yrs,i dun wait willingly for ten yrs bt time juz passes throughout the waiting,and do u tink its funny?Yea,i am dumb,stupid,tat's why I keeps on repeating the same old mistake,staying in the boundary and nv step out of it.Why wrong wif me?Do I look ugly?Do I hav any sickness?Do I make any mistake?I dun deserve any nice guy?Is my expectation high?Hw high?I hav nv expect anything frm anyone.I juz expect somebody who compatible with me,too much?Or shld juz go for an old uncle,an indian/malay,a bad guy,ah beng then is call low expectation?




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
10:58 PM


Sunday, February 26, 2012
我，从来没有谈过任何的恋爱。只有傻傻的单恋过十年，也曾经被爱过。或许我不知道恋爱中的那种感觉，但是我却清楚的了解爱上一人的那种痛苦。没有谈过恋爱的我，一次，又一次的从身边的朋友身上看到了谈恋爱的甜蜜，和一时的冲动到最后带给自己的伤害。他们的那些故事，让我对爱情的失望越来越深，期望越来越少，我甚至怀疑，世上是否真的有真爱的存在？又有多少人能够真正的拥有呢？如果爱情最终带来的只有伤害，我不希望自己这一生与它有任何的牵连。可是，我毕竟是人，我有七情六欲，所以，我好希望有一种能够封闭自己心的一把锁，将它给锁起来。然后，从此，我只有亲情，友情，不再有爱情。我甚至觉得，我这一生，可能根本不会遇到爱我，疼我的那个另一半。我不想要自己在对爱情在有任何的期望了。我竟然没有谈过恋爱，就没有必要去爱了。不需要什么轰轰烈烈的爱过，因为如果拥有过后，注定最后会失去，拥有，只是痛苦的开始。那，又为什么要拥有呢？我放弃了，我真的要放弃爱情，不要它再带给我任何的不愉快了。开开心心的我，为什么要因为它，把自己弄得那么不堪一击呢？我真得很害怕。我不要再为任何人等待十年，结果又是一场空了。够了。如果要说轰轰烈烈，那就用我轰轰烈烈的等待过一个人十年，所以，我对“爱情”这两个字，也算有交待了。让我下定决心吧，不要再期待爱情了。玩玩恋爱游戏还行，就是不要再放一点一滴的感情了。




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
7:14 PM


Thursday, February 16, 2012
I am preparing for my upcoming b'dae,this yr is 21st.I am afraid something,somewhr might went wrong.Phewww -.-,but only until the day itself,I wun noe wat or whr will went wrong.Guess wat my boss actually told me today?He asked me,if thr is a better offer,will I consider on leaving this co. and take tat offer?Used to thought I will reply yes without any second thought,but..I replied; "i dunno".Maybe has been in tis co. for quite sometimes,is abt a yr plus?The feeling is thr already.Yup,i hav went to genting with family,sis bf,esther and her mum last wk sun,frm 12-14Feb.A boring trip bt relaxing.Juz dunno why I always gt headache when I went to holiday.It's not the first time -.-.It's a lonely valentine's tis yr again.Am I pending for something?Do I really need tat?Who occupied my heart nw?Actually,I oso dunno,sometime it can be him,him or him?LOL.Sound lik I am a flirt.I hope I am nt.After the genting trip,he seems lik getting faraway frm me.Wonder wat he's tinking.He dun wan or dun dare to speak to me?He is waiting for me to talk to him or he is juz simply ignoring me?Can stop disturbing my heart if u are juz looking for "fun"?I dun wan to entertain such thing.I entertained too much,and enough.It's either u giv me the happiness or u leave me alone.Dun bother abt my existences.I believe,it's gd for both.




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
10:59 PM


Friday, January 13, 2012
It been quite sometimes since I last update my blog.Can see that I am getting more and more lazy to update as i realise everyone surrounded me are not using blogger anymore.Guess i am the only one using it nw.Becos,inside tis blogger,there is so many memories inside,it's like my life's journal,tinking of it,I am afraid if someday blogger are upgrading or etc.,then all the posting I posted when I am still a young 13 yrs old gal till nw,i am already moving forward 21 will be gone.Time flies.Things change,life's change,everyone's around change,including myself.Life's a tortured.I cannot accept wat fate is bringing to us.It's...bad.Well...recently chatting with one guy in co., really dunno why can I continue the chat and tinking if we are possible,it's kinda ridiculous.I hate it when I can't control myself to tink of ridiculous thing.My heart,are still with him.The one I waited for so long.People's around me get to noe abt it only tink that I am stupid.Fucking stupid.Bt hav u ever go through it?Can u do until lik wat I am doing?Like/Lov someone for 10+ yrs?Tat's fucking long.Bt,I am waiting for empty shell.I thought this road can lead me out of the darkness,so I followed,until now..I still don't find a way out.And so,I am trapped inside,it would takes me a long way to walk out.Still the same,it has been one yr working in this co.,but,it still didn't get any better.Tired,very tired..physically..mentally...and oh my gosh,i am gaining weight -.-.




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
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